I was born a bastard child as my father was shot and killed by police when my mother was pregnant with me. My adopted father and mother poisoned my grandfather who died of respiratory failure from ALS, and got away with it. My father beat me, my mother, and my brother, while my mother verbally abused her children, including my sister. Then I joined the military and all was good and forgotten, got married had 4 children, got out of the military, went to college, went back into the military, went to Iraq got ill, injured, and tortured, and knew of a fratricide and did nothing. Got Med discharge, Honorably, tried to work but couldn't got DX TBI, PTSD/ depression and ended up on disability lost everything first though credit, cars home, kids for a little bite. My good friend from high school murdered in his own bed, and lost a lot of friend in a club fire. Brother-in-law shoots and kills himself when we are about to move cross country and can't move and lose all the money to move (prepaid and loaded truck). Crashed motorcycle on highway almost died, but didn't. Went to visit relative and got poisoned like my grandfather now I'm worried I may develop ALS. Wife stop me from shooting myself. Spent a week in Psych Hospital. My wife has probably sleep with most of my closest friends (some friends, they dated back to JR High) all the kids are mine though (DNA). I have no one accept my kids and haven't even been around most of there life, so I really don't have them either. Now I'm filing bankruptcy from the motorcycle accident hospital bills and my wife credit cards. Already filed and about to have a whole bunch more bills from the poisoning. Now with that all said Hi, and why should I want to live especial with possibility of ALS hanging over my head!