you can buy love apparently

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by endlessskies58, Nov 29, 2009.

  1. endlessskies58

    endlessskies58 Well-Known Member

    i get so tired of my parents guilt trips with money.

    i try so hard to show them i appreciate them.

    always sending them random 'i love you' texts.
    asking to take them out to dinner or just somewhere fun.
    i try to be home for dinner.
    i try to always tell them 'thank you'.
    most of the time telling them what they want to hear...

    but no.
    NEVER is it good enough.


    and the most f***ed up part is. they're right.

    IT ISN'T GOOD ENOUGH

    so how do i pay them back for them paying for my life?

    how do i live my life going to college, working, and friends and still give them 100% because they paid for my life.


    and do you know how hard it is for me to be nice to them when i f***ing HATE THEM!


    but no matter what, they paid for everything.

    and there is no way to pay it back.
    i don't have all the money they spent on me to give back to them so they'll leave me the F*** alone! i can't do an eye for an eye


    and i don't have the energy to move out.
    i feel so apathetic and i am not afraid of death.

    if they want me out because i am so terrible, then i will die because i don't have the energy or will to try and get away from them.

    I DON'T CARE

    i feel so numb that its like 'well, fine then. i give up.'

    I'M TIRED! I JUST DON'T HAVE THE ENERGY TO DEAL WITH THIS!!!
     
  2. Tray

    Tray Well-Known Member

    you can never truly repay your parents.

    I personally believe that instead of trying to repay my parents i work hard to show them what i can will and have become. Make them proud of what they put into to raising me.

    However even so i wouldnt get to worked up over it. Most people want to gain the respect of their parents but sometimes its just not possible. In which case you just gotta accept it and move on..
     
  3. xan

    xan Chat Buddy

    It's unlikely they fully paid back their own parents... maybe it'd be better to just live life for yourself and if one day you have children, to pay for them, not expect any of the money back and treat them the way you want to be treated?
     
  4. sucidalgirl99

    sucidalgirl99 Well-Known Member

    Try to become better than your parents.
     
  5. endlessskies58

    endlessskies58 Well-Known Member

    thank you so much all of you... it is such good advice and i appreciate it so much!