Hi All, I am new to posting but not new to this forum. I have another name that I just can not access because my password will not work. LOL I felt the need to post right now because I am in a state of confusion. You ever wonder who you really are? What you really were meant to do on this earth? I have been wondering this for the past few weeks because I have been having terrible nightmares lately. The nightmares are making me "feel" suicidal yet I am not sure that I am totally at that point in my life again to "be" suicidal. Does that make sense? I "feel" the need of harm yet I don't want to "be" harmed. I am depressed from the nightmares. I am going to my therapist on the 13th of this month but until then I have to deal with these "feeling" with myself and a close friend that truly does not understand what is going on with me. It is nice to have someone in my life that is willing to help but understanding usually goes a longer way. Or if someone has been through the same things that I have been through (which then understands me and my situation). I am a very fortunate person, I have a wonderful therapist and great loved ones. Just at this point, I am struggling within myself about having this "feeling" of being depressed with the suicidal thoughts. It is simply amazing that I actually go to therapy regularly, take all my meds daily and still manage to live an unusual depressed life. (due to nightmares) I still wonder who I really am....??