Right, Im really really fucking fed up right now. For months now, I've been trying to meet someone who actually cares about me, and can look past how I look. I finally thought I'd met someone who could do that. It turns out Im deluding myself. So I finally get the balls up to ask a girl out, she says yes, I get pissed about for weeks and then she finally gives me "lets just be friends" So you know what, fuck it all. Fuck my religion, fuck my so called friends, fuck my family, fuck everything. I am so sick of this shit, all I want is someone to love me, is that really so fucking much to ask? Im done, I finally am. I just want to die, all i need is one more reason. One more thing goes wrong for me, I'm promising myself I will end up blowing my brains out. The only choice I have left now is 12 gauge or 20 gauge.