I've tried so hard to help so many of you. Half of you don't even want help. Half of you just keep your heads shoved up your own arse!! I thought I'd made some really good friends and with a few of you I thought I'd made some progress. I'm trying what is perceived as a very dangerous treatment in the hopes that it will encourage a few of you to try and seek similar help, if it works. I've always tried to offer practical advice not just a shoulder to cry on. I've stayed awake all night with some of you, I've been there for you to yell at while you've been detoxing, I've been there to comfort you when you've been hurt. I've pushed the envelope and tried to educate people, both here and the general public, tried to get people to understand this illness, and tried to teach my so called friends about treatments, meds etc. I've even donated money to help keep this place going I've been victimised by a couple of people who lack a sense of humour, and fall short of the mark in general intelligence Yes i'm not afraid to be honest!!! Favouritism is shown all over this board, with some members getting away with murder while others picked on for no reason. The mods, follow no general practise, some amend, some delete, some move, they do it by personal preference, some delete a thread just because it isn't to their taste. The interpretation of the rules varies widely, with some members describing in intimate detail about the way they self harm, while I myself not being allowed to say the word water - because water is a method. well frankly i think you can all go shove it, i'm sorry that I upset your girl friend, but well i guess maybe you should find out how the rest of the forum feels about her. I guess this is my last post, if you IP ban me then my sister won't be able to access the site either. As i'm stuck under moderation, I can't even find out people's MSN or yahoo details etc. But it's been made fairly clear to me over these past few days that very few of you like me anyway. so I guess it doesn't really matter. Hopefully I will get my plan into action, and I will be making the money I want to, and then maybe I will be able to help people, tho right now I don't really feel like helping people at all. In fact it should be fairly obvious how I feel right now, It could be assumed that robin actually wants me to kill myself, I can't see any other logical reason for attacking me so viciously only 2 days after I just made my most serious attempt to date. After I went to bed last night crying, still wanting to die and not having a single person I could talk to about them. <Mod Edit: Abacus21 - insulting> I can't believe I ever judged a man so wrongly in my life, of course you can't tell and idiot that they are an idiot, they just don't understand. Robin you know my address, consider this a personal invite, come down and visit me, any time you like. and we'll have the reasonable and polite discussuion I asked for, in the exact manner you chose. or if you don't feel up to travelling feel free to give me your address, and I'll pop down sometime. Oh I just realised I left my Knife at the hospital but I can pop in tomorrow and get it. Oh yeah and always so grown up of you to close the thread so I can't reply! Bet you'll delete this too, can't let the worshippers see their god with his pants round his ankles.