I have had a succession of shitty things happen to me this past semester, and I suppose in the grand scheme of things they aren't "huge" on the depression scale, but they have left me so downtrodden that I just...I don't know what to fucking do anymore.... I hate college because it takes up so much of my life that I have lost most of my evenings (to play rehearsal) and all of my weekdays (to classes), not to mention I have had to miss numerous things outside of school that I REALLY wanted to go to (including events with friends that were VERY important to me, and have caused me to lose some friends due to this)... And as much as I want to take next semester off, I'm: 1)afraid I'll regret it as soon as school starts back because I will have made a mistake and miss it or something, 2)afraid I'll lose my scholarship--which, actually, I'm fucking angry that I have in the first place because otherwise, I'd be able to take a break from school without this worry, and 3)if I want to keep my major the same as it is now [theatre], then one of the required courses--theatre history II--that is offered this coming spring, it won't be offered again until spring of 2013, meaning if I don't take it next semester, I'll have to wait an extra year to graduate (just waiting for that one course to roll around, unless I just change my major). I'm stressed out, miserable, lonely, neurotic, depressed, lonely, confused, frustrated, angry, lonely, and just....at my wit's end.... So with that, I say...you win universe. I fucking give up. I won't die, don't worry...I'm not suicidal at the moment...but obviously I'm doing something wrong and not to your liking, so I guess I just need to sit the fuck back and be miserable, so you can allow fate to work her black magic on me.