me posting that I'm feeling suicidal or that I am about to commit the act. I don't understand why I need to? I did post before. Now I completely wonder why? I don't want to be saved. I don't want others to worry about me. I don't want to be labeled a liar. But by posting those things are exactly what happened. Glad to pass along to other members that posting will get you help. But I'm far past that now. I accept that I am chronically suicidal and what that means. I accept that I have settled for being negative. I accept who I am. It doesn't mean that I like it, but acceptance makes life a little more bearable. It also means no more false hope. I just am. Nothing more, nothing less. So yeah, you won't see me looking for help, just offering what I can.