well it has become quite apparent that this whole "really like him as a friend thing" (as she said to a friend of mine) is total bullshit or at least that is no longer the case. why do i say this? she hates being around me. i get on the bus and she is pushing herself into her backpack and as i get to the point when i normally say hi she pretty much cringes and attempt fake a smile. and even that isn't even close to a smile its just like a quick little flash and she looks away as soon as possible. when i see her in the hallway and shes with a friend and laughing she just takes a look at me and keeps going even after i just do a little wave and say hi. she's fucking ignoring me. i can tell the she feels so incredibly uncomfortable when shes around me its not even funny. she looks relieved when i get off the bus. I'm not making this up either. theres all sorts of other things she does that proves this as well. so now I'm starting to harbor some bad thoughts about her but of course, i still care about her like none other. fucking predictable. i kind of want to send her a little "fuck you" - something to just say "well i loved and still do love you but i noticed you clearly did not feel the same about me. i tried to at least be your friend but clearly you want nothing to do with me so you know what? fuck you." but of course, that would ruin any chance of a relationship with her seeing as that i still love her and thats the last thing i want to do - real immature right? not to mention that is that i don't even have the confidence to talk to her so i dont know where that would come from exactly.