anyone else have a violent reaction to having their death being patronised, pissed upon by shows of "grief" and "loss" which, if you have the history that i have which is of chronic abuse and mistreatment from everyone around, family, so called 'friends', and ex's--- it's the last kick in the face even when you're a corpse? i do not have "loved ones". nobody loves me. but when i die, i will suddenly be "loved". it's easier to show love, care, concern, tenderness when one is dead, but i have a fair feeling it won't be for myself. it will be for the so called 'mourners.'