I really would like your imput to my belief..
First I would like to describe the incident that defined my belief in life after death. I was a new graduate nurse who ended up working in a pediatric ICU. On my lunch break, I would leave the ICU and as I walked down the hall to leave I would look through the windows into the individual rooms on the pediatric floor. One night, I looked into the room of a three year old boy that was dying from a tumor and saw him lying on his back with his arms outstretched and he was very animated and laughing. This was the first time that I has seen any emotion from him. Usually, he would just lie there and stare off into space. I was so shocked that I called a CNA over to witness this. We watched him for about 2 to 3 minutes. My break was over so I had to go back into the unit and the CNA went back to her work. About five minutes later code blue was called and I immediatly knew who it was. He had died. There is absolutly no doubt for me that one or more spirits came to escort him from this life.
Now, even though I am a member here and I think about leaving this earth every so often, I do believe that all that we go through here in this life is what we are suppose to go through. I look at this place as a school for us. I believe in reincarnation, I feel that I have lived several lives here. I do not belong to any religious group nor do I attend any meetings on the subject even though I probably should. I believe that we are given certain things to overcome before we are born. I also believe that if I were to commit suicide, I would have to "redo" the same things all over again. I know that one of the things that I am suppose to overcome in this life is lonliness. This seems to be the bane of my existance and from reading the many posts here, it seems to be many people's problems. Even as a child I have felt alone. I have always felt "apart" from everyone. To this day I seem to carry this invisible sign around that says "keep your distance". I am not trustful of people and wonder what people want when they try to get close to me. I have been married twice and money seemed to be what they really wanted. I am afraid to let any man get close to me because I am sure that they will just end up leaving me. And there is a part of me that likes having my own space. I have been told that I am pretty and I look much younger than what I am and people wonder why I remain alone. We all have "baggage", and have our insecurities but when it comes down to the truth we all are the same. There is nothing wrong with who we are, just how we persieve ourselves.
So, now I await you input.
First I would like to describe the incident that defined my belief in life after death. I was a new graduate nurse who ended up working in a pediatric ICU. On my lunch break, I would leave the ICU and as I walked down the hall to leave I would look through the windows into the individual rooms on the pediatric floor. One night, I looked into the room of a three year old boy that was dying from a tumor and saw him lying on his back with his arms outstretched and he was very animated and laughing. This was the first time that I has seen any emotion from him. Usually, he would just lie there and stare off into space. I was so shocked that I called a CNA over to witness this. We watched him for about 2 to 3 minutes. My break was over so I had to go back into the unit and the CNA went back to her work. About five minutes later code blue was called and I immediatly knew who it was. He had died. There is absolutly no doubt for me that one or more spirits came to escort him from this life.
Now, even though I am a member here and I think about leaving this earth every so often, I do believe that all that we go through here in this life is what we are suppose to go through. I look at this place as a school for us. I believe in reincarnation, I feel that I have lived several lives here. I do not belong to any religious group nor do I attend any meetings on the subject even though I probably should. I believe that we are given certain things to overcome before we are born. I also believe that if I were to commit suicide, I would have to "redo" the same things all over again. I know that one of the things that I am suppose to overcome in this life is lonliness. This seems to be the bane of my existance and from reading the many posts here, it seems to be many people's problems. Even as a child I have felt alone. I have always felt "apart" from everyone. To this day I seem to carry this invisible sign around that says "keep your distance". I am not trustful of people and wonder what people want when they try to get close to me. I have been married twice and money seemed to be what they really wanted. I am afraid to let any man get close to me because I am sure that they will just end up leaving me. And there is a part of me that likes having my own space. I have been told that I am pretty and I look much younger than what I am and people wonder why I remain alone. We all have "baggage", and have our insecurities but when it comes down to the truth we all are the same. There is nothing wrong with who we are, just how we persieve ourselves.
So, now I await you input.
