I chose "Astrid" because I payed for a ancestry genealogy test recently and found I am 29% Scandinavian, 24% Irish, 23% British, and 14% continental Western European along with 6%-1% in some lesser areas around Europe. I have been wanting to change my name for many years because I really don't like my name and I think it is a relic of the past, and nowadays, every time someone says my name it means I've done something wrong and in trouble. In the past (read: three month ago and before), I wanted a name that fit with my religion and that didn't work out too well as I end up believing/being attracted to a different religion almost every year (my idea of morality and system of ethics changes a lot and I want what I believe to actually match a religious practice) nor did I want to give up that part of me, so my name would have had three first names, four middle names and a last name, which is absurdly long. So I decided to choose a name based on my ancestry (because until recently I have hated my race/ethnicity, I'm working on accepting my gender now, which is even harder), I've been torn between Astrid and Ingrid, I'm leaning towards Astrid, I don't think I'll choose it as my first name, but maybe as a middle name.
Also there was a book I read many years ago, it's a YA novel called "White Oleanders" the protagonist was a girl named Astrid and to a small extent, I identified with her. When I registered, "Astrid" was already taken so I was going to add 123, but I decided on 112 which of course, is the inverse of the suicide hotline, so it fit I guess.
I might change it to "Angel of Pain and Misery" because that is what I called my website, and the name still applies of course.
Also there was a book I read many years ago, it's a YA novel called "White Oleanders" the protagonist was a girl named Astrid and to a small extent, I identified with her. When I registered, "Astrid" was already taken so I was going to add 123, but I decided on 112 which of course, is the inverse of the suicide hotline, so it fit I guess.
I might change it to "Angel of Pain and Misery" because that is what I called my website, and the name still applies of course.
A biblical name, Jabez was a well-respected man whose prayer to God for blessing was answered.
The name Jabez is Hebrew for "he makes sorrowful".
Jabez was labelled with "sorrow" at birth, but his prayer against contracting sorrow nullified the label. His life contradicted his name.
I chose "Jabez" because I feel I bring sorrow to myself and those around me by my existence, but hope and pray that one day I might also nullify the label and live a life which contradicts the name.
The name Jabez is Hebrew for "he makes sorrowful".
Jabez was labelled with "sorrow" at birth, but his prayer against contracting sorrow nullified the label. His life contradicted his name.
I chose "Jabez" because I feel I bring sorrow to myself and those around me by my existence, but hope and pray that one day I might also nullify the label and live a life which contradicts the name.
The Phantom Lady is from one of my favourite films, Breakfast on Pluto (ADORE the book too). The film really helped me find myself in a way that's difficult to explain...
The main character who is searching for her mother explains why she refers to her mother as the Phantom Lady "To pretend it's a story, else I might cry and never stop".
I have always used my own experiences when I wrote, and I think maybe that's why I did it... to pretend it was just a story.
I also find the name a bit poetic... I am such an introvert... I always sneak away, like a phantom... I prefer pretending I was never there.
The main character who is searching for her mother explains why she refers to her mother as the Phantom Lady "To pretend it's a story, else I might cry and never stop".
I have always used my own experiences when I wrote, and I think maybe that's why I did it... to pretend it was just a story.
I also find the name a bit poetic... I am such an introvert... I always sneak away, like a phantom... I prefer pretending I was never there.
