You know my suicide history, you know my trauma, you know my pain. Yet you pretend to care for me then break my heart. How much more can I take in this life. Overdosing wont work, it is not strong enough to do the job as I cant get the right stuff. But I do have the right weapon now and I just have to not miss. Why do you hate me? Am I such a horrible person? I have never hurt or harmed another human being. I have always tried to help others if I was able. Maybe I am not that smart but I do my best. My death will go unnoticed other than this little post on a suicide website on the internet. That is the impact I made on this world...........nothing.