So I've been evaluating a lot recently and much more so in the last few hours.
I've lost my soulmate. Gone. This one person who saved my life in more ways than one. Did I show them adequately what they meant to me? No, I think I failed in that.
I have not one close friend irl and further no one who knows what is going on with me. There is no one.
As a family, we are dispersed and not close.
My career has faltered and I simply can't face it currently. It is not for me any longer, I cannot do what I once could.
My body is hurting, silly complaints, but it still hurts.
I am sad, very sad. I am faltering. I am overwhelmed. I am disposable.
So, what is there really to prevent the negative thoughts? And what is there really to prevent negative actions? What is there for me? If I keep feeling this way, going around in circles, whats the point?
It is clear I am inept at the whole friendship and relationship thing. Its not surprising with my history, but its sad when things keep happening that remind me of the type of person I am.
Again, I repeat, disposable. What to do???????????????????????????????????????????????
I've lost my soulmate. Gone. This one person who saved my life in more ways than one. Did I show them adequately what they meant to me? No, I think I failed in that.
I have not one close friend irl and further no one who knows what is going on with me. There is no one.
As a family, we are dispersed and not close.
My career has faltered and I simply can't face it currently. It is not for me any longer, I cannot do what I once could.
My body is hurting, silly complaints, but it still hurts.
I am sad, very sad. I am faltering. I am overwhelmed. I am disposable.
So, what is there really to prevent the negative thoughts? And what is there really to prevent negative actions? What is there for me? If I keep feeling this way, going around in circles, whats the point?
It is clear I am inept at the whole friendship and relationship thing. Its not surprising with my history, but its sad when things keep happening that remind me of the type of person I am.
Again, I repeat, disposable. What to do???????????????????????????????????????????????