Starting to think that I'll regret not doing it

[sparksman]

I'm starting to think that what if I'm 30 or older and I'm still in the situation I'm in without any money or any body. I think I should just give up now because I think I'll regret living.

 

[windlepoons]

You may still be in that situation, but also you may not. Life can change, societal conditions may change. It would be daft not to see what may come, surely?

 

[emily83]

I'm starting to think that what if I'm 30 or older and I'm still in the situation I'm in without any money or any body. I think I should just give up now because I think I'll regret living.

i have this battle every day... do i or don't i

i'm 25, and i have nothing... friends, nothing i really like doing apart from watching tv and being online, a very bad support network, just all round emptyness..

part of me wants to do it and get it over with- i'm in so much mental pain, that it's really not even worth living from day to day just to live the same thing over, and over, and over.. it's like a cd, just stuck on the same track.. when it's finished, it just skips back to the start

and also guilt... i don't want to live until say 40 or 50, and still be here- in the situation i am now, having done nothing useful with my life

but then the other part of me wants to stay alive, not because i want to... but because i feel bad for people who have things such as cancer, or other terminal illness- who may not have such a chance at life and could die really young- so it's like trying to live for them.. if that makes sense

emily x

 

[Theodora]

I'm starting to think that what if I'm 30 or older and I'm still in the situation I'm in without any money or any body. I think I should just give up now because I think I'll regret living.

I'm a hell of a lot older than 30 and I don't regret living. With the pain, the depression there have also been some glorious times. Why don't you concentrate on improving your current situation?

 

[skinnylove911]

i know that feeling very well im getting close to 30 myself anmd im like if dont my degree i know i wont, but the best thing you can is keepon tryingg never plan to far ahead. Things will get better

 

[sparksman]

Thank you guys for responding it means a lot. I just feel all my hard work is going to end up nothing and I'll still be the same guy and alone. That is what worries me is that I'll never find anyone and I'll be stuck here just being jealous of everyone like always. That is all I know anymore is envy I can't even watch a TV show without getting pissed because I'm like I'll never find a girl like that (not a model or someone hot) but someone that cares about me like on those depressing movies someone always has a girl or whatever to hold their hand while they are dying I'm never going to have that person I'm afraid so I wonder if I should keep moving on in this jealousy and failure. Thank you all though I feel much better to see that people do care a bit and its nice to be able to vent.

 

[skinnylove911]

venting always helps when you need it.
are you able to take your mind it for a while?