Absolute rock bottom

[alice202]

I lost my job about a year ago and have not found another one. It is time for me to retire, and I should be doing that. But I really expected to be working for another year and since I didn't, I have fallen into debt. I am tying to get something going with online work but so far its not bringing in any money. Its a huge stressor. I may have to sell my car, and if I do that will make my life even harder.

I changed doctors recently and I have a lot of issues going on. My internist is changing my antidepressant. Last night I woke up at 3am and my mind was just swirling around all the problems. So I'm not sure if I am crashing because of the medication change or what. I have a number of health issues, including that I am now "pre-diabetic". Because of that I am going to be on a weight loss drug. But I don't know how much of it will be paid for by my insurance. I really want to lose weight, and the harder I try, the more I gain.

I've never been so isolated. I don't have a single friend I can all. Its gotten so that I hate going places by myself. Its been decades since I communicated with my family. My siblings have made me the family scapegoat. Its a pretty fucked up family. I do need a family... but it won't happen by going backwards.

There are so many things. I just want to stay in bed all day, but that won't help anything,

Please keep a good thought for me.

Alice

 

[may71]

I'm sorry things are so bad Alice. I hope things can get better soon somehow.

Sending hugs if you would like hugs

 

[BlackSheep 007]

Hi Alice, I was at this point before I retired - a complete wreck. Took me a year to get stable again. What I understand from your post:

Changing an antidepressant can have a serious impact - check with your doctor.
Pre-diabetic - I have the same problem and changed my lifestyle again: no alc, no sugar, mostly salad and sugarless fruits, water with apple cider etc. All these things help a lot and you can control it.

Staying in bed is surely for a certain time o.k., so is to let things slip - but you have to get out of this. Start some sport, scale down, try not to think too much. Watch a nice movie...

 

[Angie]

Hi Alice

I had to early retire at 50 years due to mental health. It's a big change and adjustment, but its do-able.

I hope your med change settles out and you feel better.

Prayers for you and your situation.

 

[Windhover]

Those are pressing issues going on, no wonder your mind is swirling. You're not alone when you're here: all of us are on your side @alice202 .

I hope your sleep is better, for a start. I'm glad you're seening a doctor, and I hope they are someone you trust. Did the MD give you thorough information about what you can do to help counteract the pre-diabetes?

 

[alice202]

I'm sorry things are so bad Alice. I hope things can get better soon somehow.

Sending hugs if you would like hugs

Thanks Mr May.

 

[alice202]

Hi Alice, I was at this point before I retired - a complete wreck. Took me a year to get stable again. What I understand from your post:

Changing an antidepressant can have a serious impact - check with your doctor.
Pre-diabetic - I have the same problem and changed my lifestyle again: no alc, no sugar, mostly salad and sugarless fruits, water with apple cider etc. All these things help a lot and you can control it.

Staying in bed is surely for a certain time o.k., so is to let things slip - but you have to get out of this. Start some sport, scale down, try not to think too much. Watch a nice movie...

Thanks black sheep 007

I do trust my doc. She is taking me off citalopram and onto cymbalta. The last two days I am sleepless, headachey and have no appetite. I am supposed to increase the dose on Friday but I can't do it if this keeps up. I left a message today.

I think I can manage the pre-diabetic issues if I get more exercise and lose some weight.

Alice