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For those of you who are depressed and thinking about giving up on life, please don't. Keep fighting and being strong!

iloverachel

No longer suicidal after 8 years of depression
#1
A little back story, I suffered from severe anxiety and crippling depression for around 8 years (around 2015-16 to 2024). Most days I felt hopeless, like I was trapped in a torture chamber with no way out. I was constantly researching ways to end my life. I would sleep at 3-5am and wake up at 2-3pm most days, and work night shifts feeling incredibly tired and sluggish. I did not care about my appearance or hygiene and was horribly. overweight. I did not care about my finances, spending most of my paycheck on rubbish, alcohol, junk food, drugs etc. I was in a constant negative mindset and felt angry and ungrateful for life because of how much suffering I went through. I had no passion and nothing to look forward to.

Since my journey of healing on May 19, 2024, my anxiety and depressive symptoms is mostly gone, I do feel down or anxious from time to time but it is more easily managed. I now look forward to going to the gym daily which is my passion, and am eating healthier which made a huge impact on my mood. I feel motivated in completing my fitness course which I am halfway through, because gym is my passion and I wish to share my journey and help transform the lives of others. Instead of blowing my money on drugs, alcohol and junk food, I am slowly researching how to invest in stocks, ETF's etc so I can plan for my future and think long term. I am now so grateful and see the blessings in my life, such as having a roof over my head, and having food to eat and having amazing people to talk to, at the gym and especially you guys!

If you asked me a few years ago if life would ever get better, I would say no chance and that I will probably take my own life soon.

Have a great day and I hope this post is a sign for you guys to not give up to your dark thoughts because things can get better but it is a very long and tough road
 

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@iloverachel - as you may know from the Exercise Club thread (see my signature!), you have been an amazing inspiration:

Since I've been more active with workouts and such, especially since June this year ~ I've lost 30 kg ; since my maximum heighest weight.

Fitness (- I do it at home) has been so great! The main thing was that you @iloverachel had this streak going, of going to the gym every day many, many times in a row.

That changed my life *yes4...

Can't thank you enough & love hearing this from you that your recovery & journey has had this incredible turnaround!
 
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iloverachel

No longer suicidal after 8 years of depression
#5
@iloverachel - as you may know from the Exercise Club thread (see my signature!), you have been an amazing inspiration:

Since I've been more active with workouts and such, especially since June this year ~ I've lost 30 kg ; since my maximum heighest weight.

Fitness (- I do it at home) has been so great! The main thing was that you @iloverachel had this streak going, of going to the gym every day many, many times in a row.

That changed my life *yes4...

Can't thank you enough & love hearing this from you that your recovery & journey has had this incredible turnaround!
wow 30 kg is amazing! So proud of you, your kind words mean a lot. How has your mental health been since your journey? For me, the mental health improvement was the real big win, weight loss was the bonus *hug
 

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