Hateful of myself for chronic sleep deprivation symptoms

[I_waste_everything]

wrinkles, bug-eyes, lasting pits. I disdain myself for being so confused and repressed and so afraid of generally trying anything meaningful that I never acted on the resources made available to me to try to chase better sleep habits.

Thinking about this not being my only try at this life-attempt gives me relief from need to pursue extreme measures. However, it still is dissatisfying, annoying, and I feel dysphoric looking at my "decades"-long-sleep-trouble-addled face.

 

[Lekatt]

You were not created to be afraid. Maybe it was your raising or maybe an unhappy event. But your confidence and strength are still there waiting to be resurrected. Read some self-help books or do some affirmations. You are safe and secure in all things at all times.