Venting I am not ready to go back to school

[Cyb3rSw0rd]

I cannot with this bs. My summer was shit and my school year is probably going to be even worse. I don’t want to go back to school. I never wanna see that campus again. I don’t care about anything anymore. Istg if someone even looks at me the wrong way I’m going to fucking < mod edit - method >. I am so done.

 

[Anchorchain]

@ Cyb3rSwOrd.......it seems like you're in a really difficult space and I wish it was better for you. Please don't < mod edit - method > even if someone looks at you wrong. Get through this zone, come out the other side of it and I think it's better to care about something.......like a life that you make worth living.

 

[Survivorist]

So, take a year off. You are young, you can start where you left: next year then and somewhere else. But do not harm yourself and do not give up - you might regret it later on, trust me.

 

[Just_a_guy]

For me personally, back in the day it was impossible to study something that turned out i didnt really like, and i took way too much time admitting to myself that its not gonna work out. Getting a job and slowly getting a chance to rethink my options was the best thing that happened to me then. I would say taking a year off, work and see the world before going on with your studies could be a good option. However, use that time off well, be active and absolutely get a job. Doing nothing instead is the worst in my opinion.

 

[Cyb3rSw0rd]

For me personally, back in the day it was impossible to study something that turned out i didnt really like, and i took way too much time admitting to myself that its not gonna work out. Getting a job and slowly getting a chance to rethink my options was the best thing that happened to me then. I would say taking a year off, work and see the world before going on with your studies could be a good option. However, use that time off well, be active and absolutely get a job. Doing nothing instead is the worst in my opinion.

I’m not in a place where I can take a year off. I might drop out and move to a country where assisted unalive if is legal. Idk 🤷🏽‍♂️

 

[Cyb3rSw0rd]

@ Cyb3rSwOrd.......it seems like you're in a really difficult space and I wish it was better for you. Please don't < mod edit - method > even if someone looks at you wrong. Get through this zone, come out the other side of it and I think it's better to care about something.......like a life that you make worth living.

Ok. I was jus being over dramatic. It’s not that deep lol.

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

Ok. I was jus being over dramatic. It’s not that deep lol.

So you aren't actually suicidal but just being dramatic? Because this is a suicide forum so you do understand that people will take you seriously right? Yes, it is that deep for most people here. If you're not real with us, take a seat. Your sarcasm is not appropriate or acceptable on this topic.

 

[Cyb3rSw0rd]

So you aren't actually suicidal but just being dramatic? Because this is a suicide forum so you do understand that people will take you seriously right? Yes, it is that deep for most people here. If you're not real with us, take a seat. Your sarcasm is not appropriate or acceptable on this topic.

I mean i am suicidal for the most part I can just be dramatic sometimes

 

[Cyb3rSw0rd]

I mean i am suicidal for the most part I can just be dramatic sometimes

People also don’t really take my thoughts that seriously. The whole reason I vent in here is bc I know some ppl will at the very least read what I post on here.

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

People also don’t really take my thoughts that seriously. The whole reason I vent in here is bc I know some ppl will at the very least read what I post on here.

I get it but people will take your thoughts of suicide seriously here. We have to because members have ended up dead. Not a great idea to cry wolf. But I hope that if you are every truly suicidal and have a method and a plan , you will call a crisis line with trained counselors. We are just peer support. Peace.

 

[Walker]

People also don’t really take my thoughts that seriously. The whole reason I vent in here is bc I know some ppl will at the very least read what I post on here.

People do read what you post here. That's why it's extra important to follow the guidelines regarding methods and such. Telling people that you're going to kill yourself is genuinely concerning to our users. And it SHOULD be concerning to the people in your life as well. If you're tossing it around casually, and saying it's not serious and it's not that deep, then maybe people are just used to hearing you say it, right? So how do they know when you're really feeling shitty? If you were to do something to hurt yourself they would all be left saying 'well, we heard that every week for a year...' And if you lived through that, as most people do, you would be saying 'why did no one listen? I was telling them I was going to do it!' and that would be why.
I hope you keep talking and finding support here on the site. Everyone needs people to listen and understand.