I don’t know how to become a human again

[LynxStars]

I don’t feel joy anymore.
I forgot how to smile or laugh.
I don’t know how to mingle with people.
I am scared of them.
I have this haunting thoughts,
But they are so negative,
So negative that I got no one to talk to,
Especially not to my boyfriend.
I couldn’t because I am a burden.
I guess SF is my last resource.

He once said I am like a cup full of water.
He can hold for a while,
but impossible to hold for hours .
Because his arms will get exhausted.
I knew he meant well.
But these words just…
Just hurts me so deep, so deep.

This is the second time.
I have been careful since the first time.
I built a wall.
Somehow when I tried to let my guard down,
I become someone’s burden again.

anyone related?

 

[may71]

I'm sorry you're going through this.

So negative that I got no one to talk to

There's definitely so such thing as something so negative that you can't talk about it on SF. Talking about negative things is what SF is for. So I hope you'll say more about this if you'd like to.

 

[Dani24]

I don’t feel joy anymore.
I forgot how to smile or laugh.
I don’t know how to mingle with people.
I am scared of them.
I have this haunting thoughts,
But they are so negative,
So negative that I got no one to talk to,
Especially not to my boyfriend.
I couldn’t because I am a burden.
I guess SF is my last resource.

He once said I am like a cup full of water.
He can hold for a while,
but impossible to hold for hours .
Because his arms will get exhausted.
I knew he meant well.
But these words just…
Just hurts me so deep, so deep.

This is the second time.
I have been careful since the first time.
I built a wall.
Somehow when I tried to let my guard down,
I become someone’s burden again.

anyone related?

yes, been feeling like that lately