Venting I'm just weak

[AnneXiety]

I wake up every day and I feel like I don't deserve to be alive. That I'm worthless. And I even feel bad because other people have more difficult situations and go over them. I feel like I don't even have the right to feel bad. Things could be so much worse. But I'm tired of it. That feeling is awful, I don't want to keep pretending I'm ok, and I cannot share this feeling with anyone. If I tell someone I just want to die, they will just worry, or feel I'm victimizing myself.
My situation is not that bad... I've been unemployed for 4 months and I might be homeless in 2 months. My body works more or less fine, no one is mistreating me or something like that... I just went through this once... I don't feel it is worth fighting anymore.

 

[1Lefty]

Hi @AnneXiety

Welcome to SF!
We're a caring community of peers supporting each other
We don't judge
You have the right to feel what you feel, no matter how your situation may differ from other's
You are not worthless, and you do deserve to live
I hope you'll keep posting, as much or as little as you're comfortable
You may find reasons, or at least the desire to continue fighting

peace

 

[Livelife]

I wake up every day and I feel like I don't deserve to be alive. That I'm worthless. And I even feel bad because other people have more difficult situations and go over them. I feel like I don't even have the right to feel bad. Things could be so much worse. But I'm tired of it. That feeling is awful, I don't want to keep pretending I'm ok, and I cannot share this feeling with anyone. If I tell someone I just want to die, they will just worry, or feel I'm victimizing myself.
My situation is not that bad... I've been unemployed for 4 months and I might be homeless in 2 months. My body works more or less fine, no one is mistreating me or something like that... I just went through this once... I don't feel it is worth fighting anymore.

Welcome here Anne, glad you started to share some what is happening for you. Come spend some time and see what this supportive forum is about and maybe it will bring you some relief and whatever else you might need to feel better. And you aren't worthless.

 

[may71]

You have inherent worth as a human being. You're also probably a much better person than you give yourself credit for being. Please be gentle with yourself.

Sending hugs

 

[Lifeisthis]

May is right

 

[KM76710]

I wake up every day and I feel like I don't deserve to be alive. That I'm worthless. And I even feel bad because other people have more difficult situations and go over them. I feel like I don't even have the right to feel bad. Things could be so much worse. But I'm tired of it. That feeling is awful, I don't want to keep pretending I'm ok, and I cannot share this feeling with anyone. If I tell someone I just want to die, they will just worry, or feel I'm victimizing myself.
My situation is not that bad... I've been unemployed for 4 months and I might be homeless in 2 months. My body works more or less fine, no one is mistreating me or something like that... I just went through this once... I don't feel it is worth fighting anymore.

Welcome and glad you found the forum. You deserve like other to be alive, I doubt you are worthless in the least and your thoughts and feelings are just as important as others. This is a fine place for you to share all you feel like with others and to get to know us. I hope that you do.