I'm very close to killing myself

[Mimino]

I was given some community, some inroads. But I can't speak my mind even to those I talk to. Always policed about, always censoring myself. I should just get it over and kill myself. If I speak about this as it really was I'd get sent to a hospital ward, where my freedom is gone and I drugged to feel nothing. I can just barely trust these people, but I cannot burden them with my feelings. I'm not a woman who can easily descibe her feelings to people because to lets every minor detail out. I've NEVER told anyone actually. I can't, they won't let me. I'll be punished by being reported, I'll lose my education, everything the moment I stop lying.

 

[Inastorm]

Do you want to say what you would like to say to these people here, within this thread its a safe place?

 

[Rhidia]

Mimino, we are here for you. If you need to talk? We are here.