It Only Gets Worse

[DF2010]

I see that a common theme on here is people asking why they were even born in the first place. I ponder that question all the time. I have been depressed and suicidal for so long that I barely even remember what it feels like to be truly happy and content anymore. In the past few months, in the worst time in my entire life, the pain and suffering just gets worse and worse and worse. Something terrible happens to me every single week and oftentimes it's just more than one thing. It doesn't seem to stop; it only gets worse and worse. Every night I wish that I would fall asleep and never wake up. I can totally feel that very soon that all of this pain and suffering will climax to a point where I will just not be able to tolerate living anymore, and I will be driven over the edge and will be forced to do something drastic. I pray so fervently for the pain to finally end but it never does.

 

[may71]

Sorry to hear this.

I don't believe in telling anyone that they should or should not commit suicide. I don't think that I have the right to decide.

What I do say is that in most cases, there is a way to make things better, at least so that you feel glad to be alive.

This is the empathy and compassion forum, so I'll refrain from offering any practical suggestions.

I hope that you can find your way through all of the pain and find a life that you feel is worth living.

If you feel that you have to go, I wish you as much comfort as you can have

Wishing you the best

 

[SillyOldBear]

My folks always planned on only two children. There is my brother and myself. However, her first child was still-born. That is why I was born. If he had lived there would have been no me.

 

[PaladinofKnights]

I see that a common theme on here is people asking why they were even born in the first place. I ponder that question all the time. I have been depressed and suicidal for so long that I barely even remember what it feels like to be truly happy and content anymore. In the past few months, in the worst time in my entire life, the pain and suffering just gets worse and worse and worse. Something terrible happens to me every single week and oftentimes it's just more than one thing. It doesn't seem to stop; it only gets worse and worse. Every night I wish that I would fall asleep and never wake up. I can totally feel that very soon that all of this pain and suffering will climax to a point where I will just not be able to tolerate living anymore, and I will be driven over the edge and will be forced to do something drastic. I pray so fervently for the pain to finally end but it never does.

Yo I'm sorry ya feel like this people on this forum care and ya can always ask for advice. I joined this forum to help let me know what I can do.

 

[DF2010]

Thanks for the comments, everyone. I definitely want to commit suicide very badly; I definitely want out of this life very badly. I am just so damn scared to do it. I really wish that I wasn't. Then I would've died years ago.

 

[Shannew]

Hey buddy,
I'm in the same boat as you. I feel like everything and everyone brings pain and I just want it to end. I want to OD but seeing that 19/20 people who try to commit, fail and many have permanent damage.. It seems like a very bad idea.

I recommend reading 'the subtle art of not giving a fuck' by Mark Manson.. It helped me think about things a little differently.

All the best x

 

[Nessa30]

I see that a common theme on here is people asking why they were even born in the first place. I ponder that question all the time. I have been depressed and suicidal for so long that I barely even remember what it feels like to be truly happy and content anymore. In the past few months, in the worst time in my entire life, the pain and suffering just gets worse and worse and worse. Something terrible happens to me every single week and oftentimes it's just more than one thing. It doesn't seem to stop; it only gets worse and worse. Every night I wish that I would fall asleep and never wake up. I can totally feel that very soon that all of this pain and suffering will climax to a point where I will just not be able to tolerate living anymore, and I will be driven over the edge and will be forced to do something drastic. I pray so fervently for the pain to finally end but it never does.

My life story im thinking about killing myself right now. And I hea9 os people in my house making nose

 

[Nessa30]

My life story im thinking about killing myself right now. And I hea9 os people in my house making nose

I can never get enough peace.
When I do someone seems to try and take it away. I hate this material wprld

I'm single and sometimes it feels so good not to have someone judging me

 

[may71]

My life story im thinking about killing myself right now. And I hea9 os people in my house making nose

Sorry to hear this Nessa

Is there a place you could go to where you could get some quiet for a little while? Like maybe a library or something?

Have you tried asking them to make less noise? Do you want to tell more of the backstory?