Jims Cafe' Oct 8 2019

[JMG]

Wasn't tagged so clearly wasn't thought of by anyone here but w/e gonna just reply anyway for some reason.

What was the last thing you lost? My watch, yes I'm an "old" millenial to care about watches anymore but w/e caring less and less about judgments from anyone these days.

Is there anything you fear to lose one day? Yes, my kitties, my parents, sis, friend, life and all the things I own.

What are those who taught you most in life? My uncle and some other people too somewhat but I feel like he kind of taught me the most valuable & "important" kinds of things.

What was the hardest lesson to learn during this year for you? Very hard to pick just "one" here and also can't really explicitly talk about them anyway (yes I suppose I absolutely DO fear judgment about these particular things) so I'll just say I tried a couple things that were very hard for me 2 diff times and both times failed miserably & as a result I learned where I stand when it comes to certain things. It has definitely made me a much harder and also miserable person as a result but I know there are people who actually have it much worse than me in that department (truly can't imagine how they survive from one day to the next my god this kind of stuff is truly excruciating imo).

Are there any secrets you never shared with someone? (no need to share the content, just answer with Y/N if more comfortable) Yes.

What were your goals for this year and did you reach them? Are you still trying to reach them? Did those goals change? Replace goals with "wishes" if that suits you more. (no suicidal thoughts allowed) I def. prefer to refer to them as "wishes" yes lol, for some reason when I hear the word "goal" it just makes me think of all kinds of dreadful things.
Anyway my wishes for this year were to lose some weight (about 20+ pounds would be ideal) and no I did not reach it but the year's not over yet. Yes I am still trying to reach it but I think I need to try a lot harder.
There was basically just one other wish I had for this year, and no it def. did not come true at all. I cannot say explicitly what it was. I suppose I am not trying to reach that one anymore, least not in an active way because it just became far too painful. I need to just accept that there are certain things I will just never have again in my life no matter how upsetting it might be. I have to just face the facts, wish I could talk to someone who has been through it and somehow even overcome such feelings but so far 0 luck at all. Feels rather impossible to say the least, oh well

 

[HappyKitty]

@666 @Lilmeowmeow @charley spring @Mahal

Thanks for the tag

So, what was the last thing you lost?
My favourite 2012 photo, I’m still hurt about this.

Is there anything you fear to lose one day?
Yes even if I know people come and go, I’m use to it so much that the grieve still got me semi-numb. Right now, I’m dealing with loneliness for good. I still struggle the desire to feel love and attention from others and I always fear good friends will leave me hence I hate to socialise. Most of the time, I’m dragged too. This is my secret.

What are those who taught you most in life?
A lot of people.

What was the hardest leasson to learn during this year for you?
The world is filled with possibilities yet we can’t have everything.

Are there any secrets you never shared with someone? (no need to share the content, just anser with Y/N if more comfortable)
Refer no 2.

What were your goals for this year and did you reach them? Are you still trying to reach them? Did those goals change? Replace goals with "wishes" if that suits you more. (no suicidal thoughts allowed)
Yes, one client that hired me as an intern, finished and still keep it to continue working with him after a year break and finished my photo album of character design I always have planned it for 4 years and finished it a year this year which i thought I can’t complete that, seriously, I thank a lot of people for pushing me. I thought I won’t make it anything this year when I so desperately want a personal achievement for myself at 25. I thought I really won’t make it..... But the territory of this that I make it is that I had to cut off a lot of uneccessary responsibilities, manage my time and force self to learn to prioritise which is another personal goal of mine that I got into a good habit into.

 

[Mato]

Thank you for tagging me @extraterrestrialone @Auri

So, what was the last thing you lost?
My old avatar. A practical answer.
Is there anything you fear to lose one day?
Myself. I'm really afraid if I'll lose myself.
What are those who taught you most in life?
SFers. Don't know what I will be like without them.
What was the hardest leasson to learn during this year for you?
I won't say to protect my own safety. Yes...its really hard to say.
Are there any secrets you never shared with someone? (no need to share the content, just anser with Y/N if more comfortable)
I have secrets I won't share with people IRL but seldom here.
What were your goals for this year and did you reach them? Are you still trying to reach them? Did those goals change? Replace goals with "wishes" if that suits you more. (no suicidal thoughts allowed)
I decided to enter the best high school in my city, which need excellent good grade. For me, who was serious suicidal at that time, it was difficult and a big challenge. And I know I must do that or...
And although I didn't make my best in that exam, I was still admitted and now I met some difficulty at school...because all the students were once the top students in their former class.
I will prove that I'm as good as them!

Thinking about @Mato and many people who was been mentioned above.

Thank you, I too was thinking about you today

 

[Innocent Forever]

Thanks for opening @Charlene !
Last thing I lost? I lose things every day. The most memorable last thing was a week or two ago when I couldn't find my phone and emailed my sister something instead of calling and wrote I'd lost it. She replied telling me where I'd left it.... at least someone usually knows where I put my things, for I don't.