how do people move on so fast after a breakup. i cant be one to talk because i did in a week but that was with drugs. i’ve seen my now ex with a friend and it makes me both happy and uneasy at the same time.
i feel happy that she found someone that will be a genuine good person and not end up like me but also feels bitter because i tell myself im ‘protecting her’ from how i am now but i feel like i’m just pushing everyone away. the only thing i do now is go to parties and make out with random people and i dont even know what i’m doing
all i’m doing is chasing more and more temporary physical pleasure than really trying to change myself. i dont know what i’m doing because i do impulse decisions and end up regretting it all in no time with no way to reverse them. i can only watch myself drown with no way to get up
i really need help and i’m trying so hard because i can’t cut again. i don’t want another attempt, i don’t want another physical reminder of how pathetic i am. i just need help to move on from it
i feel happy that she found someone that will be a genuine good person and not end up like me but also feels bitter because i tell myself im ‘protecting her’ from how i am now but i feel like i’m just pushing everyone away. the only thing i do now is go to parties and make out with random people and i dont even know what i’m doing
all i’m doing is chasing more and more temporary physical pleasure than really trying to change myself. i dont know what i’m doing because i do impulse decisions and end up regretting it all in no time with no way to reverse them. i can only watch myself drown with no way to get up
i really need help and i’m trying so hard because i can’t cut again. i don’t want another attempt, i don’t want another physical reminder of how pathetic i am. i just need help to move on from it
