nothingness

[maeday]

all i do is cry. it is literally the only thing i do. every single day. my eyes hurt so much and i am so tired all the time. but there is no way out, no way to fix anything. i just want to finally be brave enough to go away entirely. i need to be braver. i need the nothing. i want it to all be over. i'm so finished.

 

[Holding my breath]

I’m so sorry to hear things are so tough at the moment. Is there anything in particular that has made now more difficult?
Please keep sharing how you feel with us, we are here to listen.
stay safe. Xx

 

[KM76710]

I am sad that you are having such a time. I often feel trapped and there are many here the same even if we don't have plans of doing the action. I feel the tiredness and emptiness of things and as some put it ready to go home, sleep and rest and welcome it as a friend when it comes. I hope you will always feel like you can come here and express and will do that.

 

[fromthatshow]

Hopefully posting here brings a little relief however small. Knowing that so many know how you feel. I can absolutely relate. We have to be here for each other. Life can be so hard.

 

[seabird]

I'm sorry your eyes are hurting, and that your crying is so intense. Still, I hope that some notion of a way forward comes to you. Are there any soothing things you have or could do right now? Sending you thoughts of braveness but not to end your life, to hopefully stay until a better time for you. I'm sorry this sounds kind of awkward.

- s

 

[Gonz]

That isn’t bravery. Depression might make it seem that way, but depression lies to you.

Bravery is doing what you‘re doing right now. When you say “life fucking sucks, but I’m still going to try to make it better“ and reach out to people. When you think small victories are all that’s possible, but you aim for them anyway.

 

[iloverachel]

We are here for you friend. Would you like to talk more about what is going on in your life making you feel like this?

 

[Survivorist]

Let the tears dry.... Life is difficult we all know here. Listen - may it help:

 

[may71]

Hugs Mae. I hope things can get better.

 

[maeday]

That isn’t bravery. Depression might make it seem that way, but depression lies to you.

Bravery is doing what you‘re doing right now. When you say “life fucking sucks, but I’m still going to try to make it better“ and reach out to people. When you think small victories are all that’s possible, but you aim for them anyway.

i'm not trying to make it better and i'm not reaching out. i was saying goodbye. i just keep failing is all. i aim for nothing but the nothing.

 

[Gonz]

Saying goodbye to people you don’t know doesn’t make sense to me.

Looking to them for help (even if you don’t use the words “help me”) does.

If that’s not what you’re doing, that’s not what you’re doing, but I don’t understand. Would you mind explaining your thought process?

 

[may71]

I'm sorry things are so bad @maeday

I don't think you've ever made a "My Story" thread. I understand if you don't want to make one, but if you'd like to I hope you will.

https://www.suicideforum.com/community/forums/my-story.39/

Sending hugs

 

[maeday]

I'm sorry things are so bad @maeday

I don't think you've ever made a "My Story" thread. I understand if you don't want to make one, but if you'd like to I hope you will.

https://www.suicideforum.com/community/forums/my-story.39/

Sending hugs

I actually did make one. It's right here.

 

[may71]

I actually did make one. It's right here.

Oh, sorry.

but there is no way out, no way to fix anything

Do you mean that you feel like you haven't yet found a non-suicide way out, or do you feel like it's even impossible?

 

[maeday]

Oh, sorry.


Do you mean that you feel like you haven't yet found a non-suicide way out, or do you feel like it's even impossible?

don't feel it's impossible. it is impossible. 35 years of this have proven that and i've long since accepted it.