Is there a difference between jumping in front of a bus and just not stepping out of the way? I want to die, I just can't kill myself. I'm too much of a coward. I wish I could join the army or something and get shot. So many people die everyday, innocent people. But I want death. I'm cronically suicidal, I doubt there's any help for me. So to limit the pain that I cause I should die. I can't carry on living like this, maybe it's time to accept that my brain is too broken. I just wish my life would end. I pray for death but no one's listening. I'm 22 tomorrow, all of them wasted years. I've never done one good thing in my life. I should give up now and quit being a whiney c*nt.