I cant find a job and it makes me want to die. I feel like SUCH a failure. I cant keep a job, always someone is bullying me, or i try to kill myself, or i get a nervous brakedown, or this one time I was sure this man wants to murder me at work so I got psychosis and just ghosted my workplace.... i still think he was a serial killer or smtn but its not the point. I hate every place i have worked at, the only two places i liked I got pushed out of like the weakling I am... i will never fit in, i just cant stand up for myself and so I will eventually end my life becasue of it. Im so jealous of people who tolarate their jobs, or who fit in there or worst - love their jobs. Im jealous of people who can keep a job, who can just go there and come home and live. You are so freaking lucky if you can keep a job, you are so lucky if you can take it because i fucking cant, I will probably again end up in some shitty convienient store or a soulless factory and become suicidal and quit and then look again... and this fucking never ending cycle of jobs is destroying me. I feel worthless... Everything scares me, i have lost all confidence, i feel like I couldnt even wash dishes somewhere becasue I am so fucking stupid... I just apply no one calls back, never in my life i have sent so many job aplications and no one fucking calls. I dont know what to do.