So for the first time in over a year, I have actively thought about the best way to kill myself. As opposed to just hoping that some random event kills me. I know what issue is causing me to feel this way, but I do not understand why my usual couping methods are not helping to make me indifferent to dying. Does anyone have advice on how I can make my usual methods work again?
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Suddenly My Depression Gets Worse
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Some people have patterns in their mood and well-being that aren't obvious. Keeping a mood journal might help. I wonder if you could be experiencing a seasonal effect. Also, there's differences like the amount of allergens around that can make a difference in how you feel.
What have your usual methods been?
What have your usual methods been?
I already write at least 750 words a day so I am pretty good at getting my thoughts out there, but I have not been very introspective.
For this partiular issue, I go over all the annoying things that come with the issue at hand, then tally up the good and see the huge negative in time and money. Then I feel better, but even then seeing the negative it is not helping. I have been thinking about stuff that I want to experience related to that stuff, but again just doing wasteful just for an experience is not going to help much since I will hate myself for wasting my time.
For this partiular issue, I go over all the annoying things that come with the issue at hand, then tally up the good and see the huge negative in time and money. Then I feel better, but even then seeing the negative it is not helping. I have been thinking about stuff that I want to experience related to that stuff, but again just doing wasteful just for an experience is not going to help much since I will hate myself for wasting my time.
The thing that is causing me depression is my lack of experiences with socializing. Trust me nothing good, let me say that I am very depressed about some particular events that I could still experience. However, I place very little value in socializing. I find interpersonal relationships to be a chore to keep up. Even with people who I am good friends with I DREAD whenever one of them comes over. It is just too much work to talk and think about my words and all that stuff. I am content to only email/text with them. Sadly one of my friends mentioned his efforts in one aspect of socializing. Thus I started down this path of depression.
Thus I run into my problem, I have yet to meet another person who will make suggestions on couping mechanisms. Everyone I speak too has told me that it is okay to be depressed about this because it is natural, humans being social creatures and all. Most people find it to be self-destructive to help me justify why interpersonal relationships are pointless. Thus they want nothing to do with it, even if it would make me feel less depressed.
I guess at the root of everything I am struggling to believe my own reasoning even though I know it is correct and that is depressing me.
Thus I run into my problem, I have yet to meet another person who will make suggestions on couping mechanisms. Everyone I speak too has told me that it is okay to be depressed about this because it is natural, humans being social creatures and all. Most people find it to be self-destructive to help me justify why interpersonal relationships are pointless. Thus they want nothing to do with it, even if it would make me feel less depressed.
I guess at the root of everything I am struggling to believe my own reasoning even though I know it is correct and that is depressing me.
Sorry that this is happening.
I'd recommend trying therapy, or learning CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) on your own (there are some books on it that might help). Group therapy might help in particular, since it's a social setting.
Dietary changes, acupuncture, and traditional Chinese herbal medicine helped me a lot with my social anxiety. I could say more about that if you're interested.
I hope that something can help.
I'd recommend trying therapy, or learning CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) on your own (there are some books on it that might help). Group therapy might help in particular, since it's a social setting.
Dietary changes, acupuncture, and traditional Chinese herbal medicine helped me a lot with my social anxiety. I could say more about that if you're interested.
I hope that something can help.
I’m not sure what your normal methods are. I wonder if it’s like exercising? You can start out and things are great until your methods cannot take you any further. Then you have to try new methods and maybe even do a combination of things to have more progress. I wouldn’t let it bring you down, your methods brought you this far, now you hit the plateau. In exercise when a person does this, they become even more aggressive with their efforts to achieve their goals. What do you think?