I've been numbing myself forcefully of my suicidal thoughts for 12 years now sometimes it slips out i tried to kill myself twice. Ive been in a severe depression since i was 12 im 24 now im screw up like my father told i was something that shouldn't be born funny right im trying so much to keep going but i think i can't anymore i can't hold it together anymore i think im planning to let go of this life to release my family of me I think i need to die so that mom and brothers and sister can be happy and ok should i do that.
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What can i do now?
- Thread starter Hopeful09
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Hopful09. I am in the same position as you are. Wanting to do it. Should i do it? What will happen to my Soul if i did do it? At this moment, i ask you to take a look and read my post titled, "Lost Without My Wife". I have received some replies that has not changed my thoughts of killing myself, but for me to rethink what i would be doing, and is it worth it?
Being with my spiritual wife is worth the fear of what i am dreading, will i go to hell instead of being with her? The replies i have received have taught me (especially the last reply from SkyTree has made me think, that Jesus is listening. I have also learned that Jesus does have plans for you. I am only just beginning to understand that, and i am still unsure what plans they are. One thing i never thought of doing but which i have done, is to have two memorial tables outside my apartment door. As i am unable to physically go to her resting place, i can now look and cry, ( i am 66 years old and yes, i am crying like a baby), but by friends here, i have learned it`s not shameful to cry at any age.
Maybe by realizing that by coming to this forum, you have made the first step to some kind of recovery. I have. Like me also, i realized that those suicidal thoughts you are having are planted there by the devil himself. He will tempt you in many way`s so he can have your Soul. Resist him and turn to Jesus instead. You may be or may not be a believer In Jesus, but be rest assured, the Devil IS real.
Stay here in this forum with us and read the many replies that you will receive. I can`t be sure, but i do hope, that some of them will make you rethink your decision about ending your precious life.
As i said, i am new here and i am still having those thought`s as you are, but i already have received some good news from my Mom (actually my wife`s mom but she insists that i call her Mom), and that was a day or two ago, so changes will happen for you, just hang in there and listen to the good people in here.
I wish you the best.
Being with my spiritual wife is worth the fear of what i am dreading, will i go to hell instead of being with her? The replies i have received have taught me (especially the last reply from SkyTree has made me think, that Jesus is listening. I have also learned that Jesus does have plans for you. I am only just beginning to understand that, and i am still unsure what plans they are. One thing i never thought of doing but which i have done, is to have two memorial tables outside my apartment door. As i am unable to physically go to her resting place, i can now look and cry, ( i am 66 years old and yes, i am crying like a baby), but by friends here, i have learned it`s not shameful to cry at any age.
Maybe by realizing that by coming to this forum, you have made the first step to some kind of recovery. I have. Like me also, i realized that those suicidal thoughts you are having are planted there by the devil himself. He will tempt you in many way`s so he can have your Soul. Resist him and turn to Jesus instead. You may be or may not be a believer In Jesus, but be rest assured, the Devil IS real.
Stay here in this forum with us and read the many replies that you will receive. I can`t be sure, but i do hope, that some of them will make you rethink your decision about ending your precious life.
As i said, i am new here and i am still having those thought`s as you are, but i already have received some good news from my Mom (actually my wife`s mom but she insists that i call her Mom), and that was a day or two ago, so changes will happen for you, just hang in there and listen to the good people in here.
I wish you the best.
U have a path that ur god and religion and belief gave u i don't have nothing u have friends and love who care for u i only have my family that love me but can't understand it I can't feel anything anymore I've become numb to emotions and to life now im here to look for answers for a end point not a never ending loop thank u for the help i hope u have a good day.
