Why I Hate Myself

[souvenirsfrommarlins]

I don't like being autistic. It's a profoundly isolating experience that makes me feel as though I'm fundamentally incapable of connecting with other people. My flat affect and general aloofness are alienating, and I generally don't show or feel any recognizable emotion. I know that peers and family like or love me, but I'm not capable of reciprocating.

Nothing that I do will be consequential or important enough to justify my existence. I'll never be good enough. I don't care about "being happy." I care about proving my worth. But I've failed at that. So, I want to give up. There's nothing left for me here.

 

[Anchorchain]

You're 19 years old, right? That's too soon to give up. Please give yourself a few more years to prove yourself........to a reasonable, livable measure.
One step at a time. Get in the habit congratulating yourself for every practical, however small, achievement. It'll add up.