"The most horrendous way for someone to die"
Well, I think not. But 5 days is quite a stretch. And the whole medical induced comas, and "shall we turn off the life machines" I've been reading about.
I am, of course, not going to give the drug name, but it's a common "newb" means. I've enough to guarantee permanment liver damage, and I higly doubt I'll use 'em. I'm weak like that. One minute I KNOW I can do it, the next I'm too tired to get out my chair, grind them up and sit back down again. That's lethargy for you. :laugh:
Anyway...I've got to the point where 5 days seems simple. 5 days of numb-to aching pain. Lying in a bed, being pumped full of drugs to make you stop hurting. At least, I assume.
Why can't I do it? I can't be the only person here who feels like this. Most who have done what I want to won't be here, obviously. But God, this is worse than when I was *able* to die if I wanted to. :cry:
It's midnight. And I'll sleep and then go to work tomorrow feeling like the floor does. Downtrodden, flat and unnoticed. :insomnia:
Well, I think not. But 5 days is quite a stretch. And the whole medical induced comas, and "shall we turn off the life machines" I've been reading about.
I am, of course, not going to give the drug name, but it's a common "newb" means. I've enough to guarantee permanment liver damage, and I higly doubt I'll use 'em. I'm weak like that. One minute I KNOW I can do it, the next I'm too tired to get out my chair, grind them up and sit back down again. That's lethargy for you. :laugh:
Anyway...I've got to the point where 5 days seems simple. 5 days of numb-to aching pain. Lying in a bed, being pumped full of drugs to make you stop hurting. At least, I assume.
Why can't I do it? I can't be the only person here who feels like this. Most who have done what I want to won't be here, obviously. But God, this is worse than when I was *able* to die if I wanted to. :cry:
It's midnight. And I'll sleep and then go to work tomorrow feeling like the floor does. Downtrodden, flat and unnoticed. :insomnia: