fake

Some days are better than others...but when I say better, I mostly just mean "you're" numb or distracted....sometimes actually "fine", as you'd say after any casual "how are you" questions would pop up...but you've forgotten what being "happy" feels like, and you can't even recall if you ever...

I am not a good person. I am tired of having this fake mask in hopes of becoming it. After all these many years of trying to be another person, I don't see much change. Inside, I am still the same kid I was before trying to change I try to control those impulses the best I can so my real self...