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I for one am coming to sunder "suicidal" from "death-wanting". By my thoughts, "Suicidal" means actively ready and eager to attain physical means of causing death to oneself and activating an attempt, whereas "death-wanting" is all outrage and/or demotivation toward life and a yearning to die...

I'm 20 and never had a job. The entirety of the time I've been with my bf, I haven't been making money. He did help me once get a job at the restaurant where he used to work but they let me go after a month (they even had me work new year's eve) and I only ever received one paycheck worth $35...