well, yesterday was my first thanksgiving without my brother. my first of many holidays to come without him. he took himself from my life when he took his. i had his ashes but it wasnt the same. he wasnt there. there was no phone call to say " happy thanksgiving bro" we usually do a so called "toast" even if just on the phone saying that we are thankful for our family and all that we have. there wasnt even that this year, there was nothing. i know he was there in spirit but it wasnt him. i couldnt hear his voice i couldnt tell him how thankful i was too and for him. i feel so lost without him. this year just wasnt the same. i dread Christmas.
i should clearify. this is the second year without one brother and the first without the other. the one i was closest to however is the one i am missing so much right now as cold as that sounds and i am sorry for that. i hope someone can understand where i am coming from there
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i should clearify. this is the second year without one brother and the first without the other. the one i was closest to however is the one i am missing so much right now as cold as that sounds and i am sorry for that. i hope someone can understand where i am coming from there
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hun I wish they could both still be with you
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