I know my friends would miss me, but I think they already do. I've changed into someone they don't know. My parents would probably be devastated, but I can't live for them anymore.
The voices are getting too much, I can't cope with them. My will to fight is gone. I'm not happy with this decision, but it's something I have to do. A tiny part of me is hoping for a miracle, or that someone will hold me through the night and keep me safe, but that's not going to happen. :ohmy:
The reason for the 7 days is that my parents go away on Saturday, I need to be alone when I'm doing it.