I don't even know where to start. It's all been so up and down...more down...I feel like I'm slipping, like these last few months meant nothing. Like all my hard work to regain control of my life is going to waste. I hate this...need. Because it is just a need. A need to cut. A need to be hugged. A need to just be without anyone judging or tearing me down. I can't take all the bashing. I can't take the confusion. I can't take the constantly close to crying. I'm sliping...and I don't know how to stop it. Should I try medication again? Would that help?