i decided that i wanted to write a letter my daughter who passed when she was for so i thought maybe i would share it here and hopefully get positive support from it. thanks all who take the time to read it just so you know it means a lot to me.
My sweet babygirl,
Today would be your 21st birthday. I think about all of the things we missed out on doing. First day of school. First prom. Learning to drive. These moments were stolen from us but I guess that is how it was meant to be. I miss you so much. I want one more day with you. One more hug one more kiss. One more time cuddling in my bed watching blues clues. I miss your laugh and how you giggled your little dimples were so cute. Your blonde hair curled at the ends and your beautiful blue eyes sparkled like the sky. You were my world and I miss you so very much. I can only imagine the type of woman you would have grown to be, but that was taken from me. A piece of my heart died with you, I know you wouldn’t want to see me crying or hurting but its difficult as your momma not to hurt over losing you. Im sorry I wasn’t there to protect you as I should have been, I didn’t know this is how it would end. So yes I cry but they are both happy and sad tears. I feel so blessed that I was chosen to be your mom but my heart breaks because you left so soon. I cry because I celebrate the life that you had and I cry for me because I don’t get to be with you. I know your watching down from heaven and watching over your little sister. She adores you and wants to know all about you. She loves you and wishes she could have met you as I wish you could have as well. She asks questions about you and I tell her all I can. The funny thing is just the other day she pointed out that the two of you had the same nose. It made me smile because you actually do. As much as I miss you you will always be my angel my babygirl and you will always be remembered. I love and miss you babygirl. Until we meet again, my love is there with you.
Love,
Your momma
My sweet babygirl,
Today would be your 21st birthday. I think about all of the things we missed out on doing. First day of school. First prom. Learning to drive. These moments were stolen from us but I guess that is how it was meant to be. I miss you so much. I want one more day with you. One more hug one more kiss. One more time cuddling in my bed watching blues clues. I miss your laugh and how you giggled your little dimples were so cute. Your blonde hair curled at the ends and your beautiful blue eyes sparkled like the sky. You were my world and I miss you so very much. I can only imagine the type of woman you would have grown to be, but that was taken from me. A piece of my heart died with you, I know you wouldn’t want to see me crying or hurting but its difficult as your momma not to hurt over losing you. Im sorry I wasn’t there to protect you as I should have been, I didn’t know this is how it would end. So yes I cry but they are both happy and sad tears. I feel so blessed that I was chosen to be your mom but my heart breaks because you left so soon. I cry because I celebrate the life that you had and I cry for me because I don’t get to be with you. I know your watching down from heaven and watching over your little sister. She adores you and wants to know all about you. She loves you and wishes she could have met you as I wish you could have as well. She asks questions about you and I tell her all I can. The funny thing is just the other day she pointed out that the two of you had the same nose. It made me smile because you actually do. As much as I miss you you will always be my angel my babygirl and you will always be remembered. I love and miss you babygirl. Until we meet again, my love is there with you.
Love,
Your momma
