Hi I recently started going to this music camp where we learn a new instrument and play in a band - all in five days. I got overwhelmed after the second day and today i didn't go in. The camp leader gave me missed call and left a text asking if i was coming in I don't think il go back and i have prepared this text for her. Can i get opinions please - i dont want to sound rambly or too full of self pity. but i wanted to explain how i felt ********* Hi _____ "I'm sorry I wasn't in today. I went home yesterday feeling very down and overwhelmed and I was going to go in today to talk to you or ______ about it. But then I woke up this morning and I just decided I couldn't go in. I like learning to play the drums but I also feel a lot of pressure with them and I feel like when I make mistakes or can't keep a rhythm I'm letting everyone in my band down. I have problems with anxiety with regards to people, and I've been finding it challenging dealing with everyone socially while also focusing on camp. Most of our activities involve being in groups and I understand and accept that but it's been hard I think dealing with everyone. It makes me think maybe I should have just stayed at home and not tried anything. Maybe doing a full week camp all day for five days was too much? Even in college I was only going in for classes for 2/3 hours a day and that was it. I feel like it was too much of a change. I'm sorry but I don't think I'm coming back I feel like I've let everyone down and I feel like I can't cope with people. I worry too much about what other people think, I'm too insecure and my self esteem is probably next to nothing. At home we have a very sheltered lifestyle and even as a family we don't really talk to each other and we all just spend time watching tv in our rooms or going on the internet. I'm not used to being with so many people and I worry too much. I'm sorry, I hope the rest of the week goes well though, it's a great opportunity and I really do appreciate it." ''signed off''