This is a thread for people with abusive mothers. Okay, I admit that the heading is a bit of clickbait. But what I was thinking of was this quote (I couldn't find it online but I read it once and it stuck).
If you get a dog, and hug it every day, it will love you
and if you get a dog, and kick it every day, it will hate you
but if you get a dog, and hug it and kick it on alternate days, the dog will go crazy.
I am that dog. My mother loved me (at least when I was a small child). She hugged me and my younger brother. She read us storybooks.
She also called me mocking names, bullied me and had terrifying rages where her face was red and her eyes were slitted. She told me 1,000 times that I was selfish, and gaslighted me that I was trying to "control" her.
She bullied and humiliated my younger brother about wetting his pants, and made me upset for him.
This was all before I was 5 years old. I worried when I was a very small child that my mother was crazy.
Things got much, much worse later on. She did slap me and strapped my brother a few times, but most of the abuse was emotional. She started calling me a bitch when I was 13. She frequently told me to get out and live on the streets. I never felt safe.
This thread is for anyone with an abusive mother.
People are full of empathy if you have an abusive father. People think you are lying or exaggerating if you have an abusive mother. It's like the difference between having a physical illness and having depression. People think it's in your mind
It took years of therapy to deal with my mother's abuse. I was out of touch with her for over two years in my 20s. It was the best time of my life. I agonized about getting back in touch with her. She never apologized for her behavior except to say all that she had been going through (which I knew). She did acknowledge she had treated me badly.
I'm still in touch with her and she's 83 now. She's still toxic although less (and obviously has far less power over us), but she is still a troubling presence and often triggers me emotionally. I am nothing but kind and helpful to her. I am "doing the right thing." But it takes a toll. Therapists still help though, including one I recently spoke to about setting boundaries.
If you get a dog, and hug it every day, it will love you
and if you get a dog, and kick it every day, it will hate you
but if you get a dog, and hug it and kick it on alternate days, the dog will go crazy.
I am that dog. My mother loved me (at least when I was a small child). She hugged me and my younger brother. She read us storybooks.
She also called me mocking names, bullied me and had terrifying rages where her face was red and her eyes were slitted. She told me 1,000 times that I was selfish, and gaslighted me that I was trying to "control" her.
She bullied and humiliated my younger brother about wetting his pants, and made me upset for him.
This was all before I was 5 years old. I worried when I was a very small child that my mother was crazy.
Things got much, much worse later on. She did slap me and strapped my brother a few times, but most of the abuse was emotional. She started calling me a bitch when I was 13. She frequently told me to get out and live on the streets. I never felt safe.
This thread is for anyone with an abusive mother.
People are full of empathy if you have an abusive father. People think you are lying or exaggerating if you have an abusive mother. It's like the difference between having a physical illness and having depression. People think it's in your mind
It took years of therapy to deal with my mother's abuse. I was out of touch with her for over two years in my 20s. It was the best time of my life. I agonized about getting back in touch with her. She never apologized for her behavior except to say all that she had been going through (which I knew). She did acknowledge she had treated me badly.
I'm still in touch with her and she's 83 now. She's still toxic although less (and obviously has far less power over us), but she is still a troubling presence and often triggers me emotionally. I am nothing but kind and helpful to her. I am "doing the right thing." But it takes a toll. Therapists still help though, including one I recently spoke to about setting boundaries.
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