Here goes: I am 40, completely socially isolated and severely depressed. I have been thinking about ending my life for a long while now, have been planning it for a few months, and recently I committed myself to it. I chose to <mod eidt: bunny - methods> in the safety and comfort of my home, because I feel this is the only way I am capable of doing it without messing it up or getting 'saved'. <mod edit - methods> Also, I am terrified of heights, understand chemicals are a painful and unreliable method, and I do not want to inconvenience transport companies. I found this site via seeking a pro-suicide chatroom where I was hoping to get some advice on an efficient <mod edit - methods> Not a pleasant experience I am sure, but one I am definitely prepared (and committed) to going through in order to solve my problems. I chatted in the live chatroom about this and received the predictable resposes about finding God and considering people who care for me. These certainly don't work on me because I am an intelligent person, an atheist and I committed myself to my solution a while back. Some advice did rub off on me, however, and I am now strangely considering giving it a go. The advice is to join a class or a club in order to get out and meet people. I am very shy (this is a major source of my problems) and I don't mix well. Also, I am so socially isolated that the nearest person that I know simply to talk to in the street lives about 30 miles away. I'm unemployed and I have hardly left the house in over 2 months now. I also drink heavily. I am therefore very anxious about attending a class - but I am willing to give it a go. Does anyone have any similar experiences or useful suggestions? A painting class sounds the most appropriate to me so far. Also, I hate football. By the way, many thanks to all those who spoke with me today in the chatroom (sorry, I don't remember your names, but if we speak again I'll post your names here as recognision and thanks). I appreciate your time and concerns a lot, and you may just have saved a life.