Alone

[Sad01]

Today I found out my sister died from my mom. I only even found out because I asked her after barely speaking. My life's been so hard that I don't even have time to keep up with them dealing with my own sickness. I was trying to help my sister and she was doing good but I fell short trying to focus on myself thinking i would have enough time. Even out of frustration because she would fall back on bad habits. I regret it all now because I never even got to meet my sister. We only had a relationship over the phone and she took care of me for the time I knew her. She always had a positive attitude and now that I think of it only became sour when she was sick but I was so focused on go go to take care of my problems I didn't even realize how bad it was. I thought well if these changes In diet would be made it would just go away fast but I haven't been able to be there to fully get how much she was dealing with. I'm not close with my other siblings anymore and after loosing my last long term relationship I basically have no one. No one that understands me for what comes out of my mouth, no one that tries to communicate with me without a preassumed judgment of who I am in their heads. I feel like I'm not a person just some pet and it really makes me hate myself

 

[Windhover]

Sending condolences. @Sad01 I'm sorry for your loss. May your sister rest in peace.
Being understood even a little bit here on SF can help some.

 

[full]

I am sorry for your loss

 

[may71]

I'm sorry you lost your sister.

I fell short trying to focus on myself thinking i would have enough time

When you lose someone it's common for people to wonder if they had only done things differently things would have been different. Usually that's not true though.

I was trying to help my sister

I bet the care that you showed for her probably meant a lot.

Wishing you comfort in your loss.

 

[Sad01]

Sending condolences. @Sad01 I'm sorry for your loss. May your sister rest in peace.
Being understood even a little bit here on SF can help some.

Thank you, she's passed from medical complications. 🙏🏽♥️

 

[Sad01]

I am sorry for your loss

Thank you ♥️

 

[Sad01]

I'm sorry you lost your sister.

When you lose someone it's common for people to wonder if they had only done things differently things would have been different. Usually that's not true though.


I bet the care that you showed for her probably meant a lot.

Wishing you comfort in your loss.

Your right, my regret is becoming involved in my current situation that made me selfish and not able to deal with my life and hers. You just don't think someone's going to die even tho you know they aren't doing good until it happens and your to late.

 

[Windhover]

You just don't think someone's going to die even tho you know they aren't doing good until it happens and your to late.

This happened to me with my brother, who died a few years ago in summertime.
I hope, given the circumstances, that you're doing alright @Sad01 .
hug

 

[KM76710]

Thank you, she's passed from medical complications. 🙏🏽♥️

Sad to hear of the loss of your sister from your life. I am glad you are posting here with us and I hope that you continue to do that because you are with a fine and caring group. I hope we will be able to bring a bit of comfort and for you to not feel so alone.