ANGEDONIA. HOW I FUCK SHOULD FIX IT
Hello. I dissapeared from the forum for 4 months, sorry for that, but anyway I back, cannot exactly say for how long..
I struggle from angedonia. I can not get happines and enjoyment from the things I early get it. I play guitar and sing a lot, before it was trowing me up to the 10th heaven, even if i was playing bad. Now I play and sing pretty good, but I have 0 happines. It was like my sacred dream. Same from listening favourite music, games, talking, walking, making sports, ANYTHING. Its just no sense to keep livin' like that.
I am a 16 yrs old teen, who suffer from lonelinnes and suicidal thoughts for 2 years, maybe thats from i get it. Also i suffer from a long war in my country (like 5 yesrs already) Also, i was almost beaten to death for a no reason by other teenager, who older then me two months ago. Thats for context. want to reabilitate a lot. I want to be happy. I already went trough shit I shouldn't, and beared a lot. I fought very much. But im tired as a fox who was running from wolves for all of its long-yeared life.
I cannot visit a therapist. Circusmanstes a such, that I cant. But wel, i still tried to call some free voluntary fonds of mental help, i tried very little so i cant say did it help or not, maybe yes.
I beg you for advice. guide, tutorial, support, help,, i have no fucking idea. I determined to be better, but I'm in dispair. I could not get much of support here 4 months ago, from family, from r/mentalhelp and r/suicidewatch
it just logically looks like suicide is the only outcome
i do hope you doing good, have a wonderfull day
Hello. I dissapeared from the forum for 4 months, sorry for that, but anyway I back, cannot exactly say for how long..
I struggle from angedonia. I can not get happines and enjoyment from the things I early get it. I play guitar and sing a lot, before it was trowing me up to the 10th heaven, even if i was playing bad. Now I play and sing pretty good, but I have 0 happines. It was like my sacred dream. Same from listening favourite music, games, talking, walking, making sports, ANYTHING. Its just no sense to keep livin' like that.
I am a 16 yrs old teen, who suffer from lonelinnes and suicidal thoughts for 2 years, maybe thats from i get it. Also i suffer from a long war in my country (like 5 yesrs already) Also, i was almost beaten to death for a no reason by other teenager, who older then me two months ago. Thats for context. want to reabilitate a lot. I want to be happy. I already went trough shit I shouldn't, and beared a lot. I fought very much. But im tired as a fox who was running from wolves for all of its long-yeared life.
I cannot visit a therapist. Circusmanstes a such, that I cant. But wel, i still tried to call some free voluntary fonds of mental help, i tried very little so i cant say did it help or not, maybe yes.
I beg you for advice. guide, tutorial, support, help,, i have no fucking idea. I determined to be better, but I'm in dispair. I could not get much of support here 4 months ago, from family, from r/mentalhelp and r/suicidewatch
it just logically looks like suicide is the only outcome
i do hope you doing good, have a wonderfull day
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