Doctors at the hospital say that I have religious psychosis, but I just think that they don't understand the weight of having to socialize with angels and demons all day. It's tiring. The angels want me on their side, to fight for Heaven and be a good orthodox Christian. But, then, the demons step in and try to persuade me to join Hell's side. It's all very confusing and overwhelming. I can hardly sleep without having them all pop in and chat in the middle of the night. Zadkiel is the worst - though he's my favorite angel, and my friend, he visits me the most and it's always at the most inconvenient times. It's not that I don't enjoy seeing him, it's just that I'm exhausted and it can get annoying to have him pop in every couple of hours with news about the angels and demons. Does anyone else have any kind of religious disorder or religious beliefs that conflict with their suicidal feelings/self worth?