The anniversary of my Uncle's death is next Saturday and as the day gets closer I find myself getting more emotional. It's been many years but sometimes it still hurts like it's yesterday. Once he was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer he went very quickly and I was away at college. I didn't see him much during those final days although I know that was partly because he didn't want his niece and nephews to see him dying.
The past few years I've handled this better, but 2020 has not been a normal year. We lost 2 other close relatives back in April. I haven't been working since the beginning of August so I have been at home thinking too much but also working on mental health at the same time.
So many times this year in particular I have wanted to talk to him in the worst way. Even if it could only be 15-20 minutes. My therapist suggested writing a letter to him but whenever I get started I cry.
I miss him so fucking much and it's terrible when wonderful, loving people's lives are cut short.
The past few years I've handled this better, but 2020 has not been a normal year. We lost 2 other close relatives back in April. I haven't been working since the beginning of August so I have been at home thinking too much but also working on mental health at the same time.
So many times this year in particular I have wanted to talk to him in the worst way. Even if it could only be 15-20 minutes. My therapist suggested writing a letter to him but whenever I get started I cry.
I miss him so fucking much and it's terrible when wonderful, loving people's lives are cut short.
)!~* ‘tis been too long - when were the 90’s again? And did they ever really come to an end! (Not in my head. . 
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