Not sure if this can be considered a disorder, but here goes...
I am on the spectrum, but I am high functioning, sociable and have covered any shortfalls with nearly 2 decades of self-training and practice, so I generally view me being an Aspie as a personality quirk and nothing more, but today I had a full-on sensory overload.
I'm finding that due to my current circumstances (LONG commute, isolation, depression returning, and barely sleeping) I am so physically exhausted that my defences and learned behaviours are extraordinarily shaky, like if you removed the oil from a car engine, the normally smooth running gets grindy and laboured.
Anyway, I spent all morning in sensory overload working with 2 very socially forceful and loud people and surrounded by powertools, it was an ordeal putting up with it and powering through. Even with earplugs in, people's voices were uncomfortably loud, to say nothing of the power tools, any tiny scratch on my skin burned, when I had to use strength I could feel every fibre of my muscles and my joins creaking under the pressure, and don't even get me started on the overpowering array of smells, especially when one guy used the toilet and make a stink, even the shadows my workmates cast on the wall in-front of me as they passed between it and the light behind me was too much, the shadows moved so fast I had to close my eyes a few times.
So much and so intense input gave me an anxiety attack, so there I was shaking and flinching and just trying to do my work, my mind was going a mile a minute too. Well, it eased off a lot after lunch but that was a novel and unpleasant experience that I'm glad is SUPER rare for me.
I am on the spectrum, but I am high functioning, sociable and have covered any shortfalls with nearly 2 decades of self-training and practice, so I generally view me being an Aspie as a personality quirk and nothing more, but today I had a full-on sensory overload.
I'm finding that due to my current circumstances (LONG commute, isolation, depression returning, and barely sleeping) I am so physically exhausted that my defences and learned behaviours are extraordinarily shaky, like if you removed the oil from a car engine, the normally smooth running gets grindy and laboured.
Anyway, I spent all morning in sensory overload working with 2 very socially forceful and loud people and surrounded by powertools, it was an ordeal putting up with it and powering through. Even with earplugs in, people's voices were uncomfortably loud, to say nothing of the power tools, any tiny scratch on my skin burned, when I had to use strength I could feel every fibre of my muscles and my joins creaking under the pressure, and don't even get me started on the overpowering array of smells, especially when one guy used the toilet and make a stink, even the shadows my workmates cast on the wall in-front of me as they passed between it and the light behind me was too much, the shadows moved so fast I had to close my eyes a few times.
So much and so intense input gave me an anxiety attack, so there I was shaking and flinching and just trying to do my work, my mind was going a mile a minute too. Well, it eased off a lot after lunch but that was a novel and unpleasant experience that I'm glad is SUPER rare for me.
