These past couple of years have been incredibly difficult for me me. I got married, beat on, filed for divorce, moved to a new city(not my first time) got involved with a friend of over 20 years, tried to move again, got my heart broken again and now Ive locked myself in a room for the past week. <mod edit - methods>and I'm just ready to go. I've actually never felt more ready than I do now. This is my last attempt at trying to beat this thing called depression that I've suffered with since I was 11. In the Afro-American community, depression is something that is rarely spoke of so when you are dealing with it no one knows. I attempted suicide when I was 16 and was never really helped. My mom swept it under the rug and it was really never spoken of again.. How do I get past this??