Because we all know, the hardest goodbye is the last

[Brooklyn94]

I just don’t want to.
I don’t want to
I don’t want to

It hurts.
Sure I could call a crisis line or something
Get put away in hospital somewhere
And feel worse than I do now

But for what? For why?

I need help, but no one can help me

And I am so close to done
Because what’s one more?
One more life gone?
Not much, not when you’re talking about mine

 

[M...]

It is much, i is a lot more than u will ever realise now, a life is worth more then u can possibly think.
anyone’s life.
except for the monsters who made u feel like this.
please..please don’t do anything
u don’t have to be put in a hospital
maybe u can join private therapy.
u have to help yourself out of this.
Please.
i beg u.
i fuckin beg u to get help.
You r getting abused.
and it’s not ur fault.
i beg u to get help... now!

 

[Lane]

I just don’t want to.
I don’t want to
I don’t want to

It hurts.
Sure I could call a crisis line or something
Get put away in hospital somewhere
And feel worse than I do now

But for what? For why?

I need help, but no one can help me

And I am so close to done
Because what’s one more?
One more life gone?
Not much, not when you’re talking about mine

I'm sorry that you're hurting so much. Your writing is very poetic. I hope that you will stay safe.

 

[1964dodge]

@Brooklyn94 it's ultimately your decision, life or death. death and nothing left you are gone, no hope no joy no anything. you have lost all. but if you still want to die that is still possble in the future if you want to keep trying. as long as you're alive there is a chance to have things get better. of course you have to want to get better and put in the work to make things improve. if you're in crises call a crises line or hospital. hopefully you wont get admitted but the hospital is much better than a cemetary. i have been there as so many others here. we were ready but with a little help we chose life. i've had a rough road the last couple of years but not suicidal at all now. it's up to you but every life is valuable....mike...

 

[may71]

Sure I could call a crisis line or something
Get put away in hospital somewhere
And feel worse than I do now

Sorry that you're feeling so bad Brooklyn

I think the domestic violence or crisis lines are confidential. You might be able to confirm that with them. I don't think anyone is going to force you to go to the hospital.

If you can just get a conversation started with a DV or crisis counselor, a better answer than you thought was possible might emerge. Can you try?