Thanks everyone...I'm doing a bit better now that I'm sober. Still lonely as hell...I miss her so much.
She says she wants to be friends and I know she still cares about me...she's said that there's still some love even but it's not enough to support a relationship. I still love her deeply so I don't show any anger or resentment...the concept that she's actually happy is the one thing that keeps me alive sometimes.
I don't know how far that's going to take me though. She says she has no desire to get into another relationship for awhile but if she ever did start dating someone again soon I think it'd be the last straw for me.
She says she wants to be friends and I know she still cares about me...she's said that there's still some love even but it's not enough to support a relationship. I still love her deeply so I don't show any anger or resentment...the concept that she's actually happy is the one thing that keeps me alive sometimes.
I don't know how far that's going to take me though. She says she has no desire to get into another relationship for awhile but if she ever did start dating someone again soon I think it'd be the last straw for me.