But I don't think I do. I've had lots of depressive periods in my life, getting steadily worse to the point where I've been suicidal and using self-harm to stop me killing myself. It's started to come back recently, not so much the being suicidal although I've been thinking about it, but I've had 3 urges to SH this week. But I don't really have the hypomanic episodes. I've read that things like a very high self esteem comes into it, and sometimes I do have a stupidly high self esteem (and naturally sometimes in my depressive episodes I have a ridiculously low self esteem to the point where I sometimes want to kill myself) but I don't think that I have 'hypomanic episodes'. What does anyone else think?