Bored and depressed

[cardenasii]

I was feeling very bored today and caved in to some recurring thoughts about death. I tried to preoccupy myself with other things but I just wasn't feeling it. I ended up walking over to a bridge near my house just to check it out. I realized that it's not tall enough anyway and I am a coward so I would never even be able to jump. I smiled/waved at everybody that I passed along the way... nobody did the same back. I ended up coming back home and having wasted like an hour of my life. I am such a loser.

 

[may71]

I smiled/waved at everybody that I passed along the way... nobody did the same back.

I'm sorry it was like that. I tried doing the same thing once and got more or less the same results.

It's not that people in principle can't be friendly, it's more that out in public people are generally more in a mode of being suspicious of others, and that's especially true in urban areas. I think there are some places in the world where people are generally more friendly though.

I am such a loser.

I don't think you're a loser. I think you're a wonderful person struggling with the harshness of the world. I hope you can find a way to be gentle with yourself.

 

[cardenasii]

Thank you for the reply @may71 I know that people are generally more wary in public, but I feel like most people aren't very friendly even to people that they are closer to. It feels like everybody is so far away from each other.

 

[may71]

Thank you for the reply @may71

You're welcome!

I feel like most people aren't very friendly even to people that they are closer to. It feels like everybody is so far away from each other.

There seems to be a general level of societal dysfunction these days, so I think that makes it harder for people generally.